It's been 3weeks now. Still feeling lost. Yesterday evening my BFF came to visit me. She went tru what the same situation few years back. It's really nice to talk to someone who's in the same shoe with me. We cried... We shared stories...I loved her for being there for me during my toughest time in my life. I'm really proud to hv such a good friend.
Then later at night DH and me had a talk for our future plan. I told him we would try in future but for now I need to knw the real cause of their loss and I need more time to greive for them. I'm gonna give myself atlest 6month to recover from it.
It's really tough to plan for another baby. My twins baby is always in my mind. DH seems to be really upset n down ever since our babies left. But he's trying to move on and not to talk about it. After yesterdays talk he really burst out and started crying the whole night and that's how I knew he misses the babies too.
We even discuss about adoption baby. But DH was not really keen and he said we should try again. I knw he wants to hv our own babies. But in my mind how sure it's not going to happen in the next pregnancy? If the Dr can tell me whats the cause of the loss maybe we can try to prevent it in future. But knw Eveything is still a question mark. It's been 3weeks and everyday I kept telling myself what made us to loss the babies. Was anything wrong with my uterus??? Cervix??? Placenta??
Now all I want to know what made me to loss them. Would b going in for a follow up next month 16th. I what to ask this question to my gyne again. I just hope he would say something rather then its being an unknown cause.
If we knw the reason of it, we can plan for the future. But if we dont knw shall I try again??? I'm just so lost.
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